As I've shared before, I'm not one who dresses in designer outfits with matching purses and makeup from Mary Kay. There is nothing wrong with any of that, I just am slowly coming to terms that most of my stuff comes from Walmart or the Dollar store not just because it works for our budget but dare I say---I prefer it!
When I get gift cards from places like Macy's I rant and rave not because there is so much to choose from, but honestly it doesn't work for me. Phew, what a freeing thing to confess!
When we had our daughter I envisoned her being this frilly princess that would roll her eyes at her droll unhip mom that gets giddy over Bill Blass jeans at our huge thrift store. At six months old I got a clue that maybe, just maybe our daughter wasn't going to be all pink and dainty as I thought. She was in her stroller when a little boy approached her feet. Her big brother immediately rounded to the stroller to guard her while I eyed him from the front. Before that kid could flinch little baby took matters into her own hands---she tried to kick him.
I'm seeing more evidence on femininity that liberates me because I desire it so, yet not in the way I thought girlie was supposed to be. My daughter gives me lessons on this nearly every day. She loves pink. She loves to dance and sing and smile and giggle and all the fun things girlie girls do.
On the flip side her bus aide asked us if we were traveling for the weekend because she kept talking about it and no one believed her. One little boy was so sure he was picking on her about how she knew nothing about going to see Grandma. Well apparently she was ready to take this kid on warrior princess style--pink and all. She beats on her brother to no end and she exudes confidence I dream about. She reminds me of my new favorite show...
The Closer. Brenda Leigh Johnson is the Deputy Chief of the LAPD's Priority Homicide Department. Not a fluffy pretty job by a long shot. She wears nice outfits and has great hair and lipstick that gets attention but you do not want to mess with her in interrogation. You do not want to get in her way when there is a piece of cake or candy in sight and she's stressed. Her Southern drawl disarms before she literally arrests after a confession no perp dreamed of giving up. She has a sweet relationship with her boyfriend (although for my two cents I wish they'd marry, but that's me...)who draws her out with patience and gentle truth. She can't focus on anything, no matter how many bodies are stacking up, if her kitty cat is missing. This is feminine to me. She's tough, vulnerable, all woman, scared, flawed, and really admired because she gets the job done.
I don't know what my daughter's future is but given her health struggles early on, the anointing of joy over her life and face that literally stops strangers because the kid is just that happy, my guess is frilly and poofy won't be part of her vocab any more than it is mine.
As for me, earlier this year I was sharing my lack of confidence and self esteem because I'm not all girlie and my mentor shared this picture with me---the warrior bride. When I pray for things in my quiet time, no matter how short of a span that is, I take a stance in the spirit that basically says bring it on. Things are coming to pass I have prayed years for. The promises I have prayed over are many and the time is now. I can't wear heels for something like that. Times like this require combat boots.
This picture is my heart, my definition of feminine, my hope for my daughter. Take a peek at this link, the picture, the description. Isn't it so inviting?? Like me, just get in her way when she wants to pray. We are brides, we are feminine, but friends, we wear combat boots. And that...is ok!
http://www.elijahshopper.com/ProductDetails.asp?ProductCode=ART%2DCF002
Sorry, I am STILL not getting consistent links on the actual blog, but please cut and paste it in your browser, especially if the image of a combat book wearing bride intrigues you.
Reminder---Go Fish's "Snazzy" releases October 9. I'm bypassing my fear of people actually doing something I say and saying hey, check this group out. www.gofishfuys.com where shipping is free. This is family friendly, catchy and just plain fun to listen to for all.
Stick around, by confessing how frilly I'm not, I'm going to write about how Captivating YOU are!
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